This is something i keep telling myself when it gets super painful and excruciating.

No matter how painful it is now, i have to go through with it. Even if it slaps me in the face or stones me or sticks a thousand blades in my heart.

Because at the end of it, i want to walk out of it smarter and better. Not angry or bitter. Being able to stand being alone. Address all my fear of abandonment issues. Whole again.

So the intense pain now is necessary. I dont like it. I dont want it. But it needs to happen.