Feeling that super-alone feeling more than ever this period...

It makes me feel kinda glad in a way that i know nobody really reads this space anymore, not the people i know of anyway.. i think. Yet there are times i do wanna cry out for the attention. But pride and sensibility prevents me from doing so.

I always did think, my kids have no idea how lucky they are to be involved in all the stuffs they are now.. cos i have the feeling.. i'm feeling restless this way cos i dun hv enough to occupy me.

Then again, i know i shun have done tt that time... it's prolly one of the contributing factors to this feeling of super-aloneness..

I just need to work harder to keep the mind occupied. And remind myself not to do stoopiak things when i can't handle the consequences..