Sunday, December 28, 2008

So. My trip wasn't exactly the well-deserved, restful and fruitful trip i planned it to be. Actually, scratch "fruitful" in terms of shopping. Cos the shopping was pretty fruiful.

Felt more like a week of not enough rest (added to the sleep debt), aimless driving around due to an autocratic planner of our itinerary, and emotional torture, which just cemented my belief that my relatives are all of a kind-superficial beings. Yup, i'm surrounded by superficial people. So want to go away for CNY. Sounds like a bout of running away from what u can't escape, but i believe i'm entitled to my pride and ego, thank u very much. Just need to count my expenses to see if i can scrape enough for a 3D2N Bali/Batam trip.

At least the shopping was good. Wait till i get my act together and load my pics.

And my take from this trip? I SO LURRRVE SINGAPORE AND MY DEAREST FAMILY.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

I just wanna leave Singapore on a happy note and enjoy my well-deserved holiday in Malaysia with my beloved family.

I hate knowing how some people can be: they just don't care how their actions affect your work, and because your voice is smaller, you can be pushed around. You are depended on to produce the results these idiots get away with.

I hate knowing double standards. Or triple standards. Or even quadruplet.

But at the end of the day, I know i just need to care that I answered to myself, that my integrity is v much intact.

Just wanna finish my reports and enjoy my beautiful well-planned holiday.

Thankies to vonniedear for listening to me cry just now. Think i been holding it in these past few weeks.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

My (Superficial) Journey

So muthafucking angry with the attitudes of certain imbeciles who breathe the same air but do not act like they are any smarter anyway.

I can und the attitudes of the youths.. given their exposure to the world and their egocentric personality at their life stage: they are superman in their world. But how about those who know better? Their actions belie their age.

I am not going to keep quiet about it and just swallow it like it's a fact of the world, even if it is. In this world. In this land.

Cos in my land, i can say however i like it, thank u very much.

1. Fucking pissed off with people who act greater-than-thou and behave like they own the entire aisle in the supermarket. It's like, hello, the supermarkets here build the aisles for the average Singaporean build and just becos they dun have the money to build u bigger ones doesn't give u the fucking right to cluck your tongue (such a childish way of showing displeasure) when someone bigger tries to cross over u and trip cos your fucking big basket which is fucking bigger than your entire body is in the way.

2. Or maybe i should aim my source of displeasure at the way the aisles are built here. It's the same as seeing a plus-size enjoying a burger. They stare at u in that incredulous manner designed to make you feel guilty that you are even considering eating a burger, becos for goodness sake, get rid of the extra burgers on your body first. Similarly, the aisles here are built to tell plus-sizes that, you just gotta muthafucking fit your body type into my aisle. Thank God for Giant Hyperstores and Hypermarkets. Not as big as Aussie or American supermarkets but still satisfactory enough.

3. Is it like we are any less healthy? For muthafucking god's sake, most are probably even healthier than those who chow down burgers and shakes like there's no tomorrow, and then they have the cheek to turn around and look at the plus-sizes, and say, why u so unhealthy? Just cos the fats dun pile on as fast cos of their Bottomless Pit stomachs (which doesn't guarantee their clean bill of health anyway). What's the real issue here? Health (which is deemed to be valued more than gold) or Slimness? Truth be told, most plus-sizes are already so guilty that their build dun fit in with the societal norm and are trying their best to do so. But u guys dun give them a break do u?

4. But the worst of all are the hypocrites. Acclaiming to be the true health freaks, sports freaks, and then condemning the plus-sizes for being, well, plus-size. What have your Health degree, Sports degree, taught u? That there's only 1 body type when it comes to health and sports-and that is the typical Figure 1 type? And does your degree encourage u to criticise, or to help?

5. Like the search to superficial beauty, enough is never enough. Ask me. I too had my fair share of princess dreams. Dreams of fitting into those clothes i used to think are the only style to go. Dreams of being slim and popular and garner attention as the queen of prom. Endless dieting, expensive gym classes, exercise routines, slimming pills, eating healthy, which still amounted to the thoughtless remarks, no encouragement, same body type and finally self-mutilation took too much of what could have a more beautiful 5 years in high school and University. The wake-up call which came in the form of a battered body (the spoilt metabolism and weak stomach) and the worries of those who truly cared no matter what body type i am, started me on the road on self-recovery and self-love. For the past 2 years, i have never truly loved myself as much as i do now. It was still a 2-year journey fraught with unkindness and remarks passed becos these people truly do not know any better, but it was a also a 2-year journey that taught me more about self-acceptance than any time. I really wasted my 5 years.

6. The journey isn't at an end. I know i still have more to learn, that i haven't fully grasped the concept of self-acceptance as i should. That remarks will still continue to hurt, but not like a dagger in all the way as in the past, but more like BB pellets that hurt for that fleeting instant and bounce off.

7. If I need any unconditional love, at least i know my doggy will give me that anyday. He's unbothered by my size since he doesn't know any better and cannot tell me how he truly feels anyway. Haha, maybe pet-lovers are like that? They just need that form of unconditional love.



Always love myself,
Ling

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Looooong Updates (photos-heavy)

Was just talking to my colleague the other day.. it's only about 1 month before our immensely-long 2-week break in December, however, in the meantime we have loads of work to clear first!

Haiz, let's not think about the depressing stuff.. these 2 weeks had its share of minor hiccups for me, but as like all things i learned, i'm trying to learn to take it in my stride and let it be a good lesson for future repeats of the same incident.

So let's fall into the things that have been making me really happy this past month!

::Jolie Avenue::

I discovered a couple of online shops i really like.. the first one is Jolie Avenue, which came to my notice first through Grace. She bought me this really lovely pair of earrings for Xmas last year, and i been in love with the shop ever since. I bought something for one of my galfrens, and she really liked it. thinking of buying from them for my Xmas shopping this year again.. In the meantime, i gotten a few trinkets for myself!

In the mail... intricately and individually wrapped.


The pair i love most at the moment.. made of buttons and scissors charms.. Sewing Kit earrings as they are called by the creators. Super Unique. Loves.


Constellation set of earrings and necklace.. Thoughtful discount given as i purchased it in a set. Reminds you of the constellation of stars in the sky ain't it?


Spring earrings. Can be worn on all seasons in my opinion. I love the swirls and leaf charms.


::Lavender Closet::
I actually discovered this online before realising they have a shop on Bugis level 2. Simply love their well-made plus-size pieces and impeccable service by the sweet owner, Kayde, who makes the effort to remember all her customers and their likes and styles. No pics to show but some of the pieces i been wearing to work received good compliments. Yipps! I love how the cut of their clothes flatters.

::Recce-ing at Sentosa::

This Nov-Dec been and is going to be fun fun fun cos i'm working with my fav gals.. We are just a crazy bunch when we get together and laugh over the silly jokes we make.

Eating that Giant 'dog at Siloso Station


Brings you back to childhood doesn't it? I wanted that playhouse when i was younger..


What's hiding behind the brollies?


"hui(3) meng(3) yi(4) xiao(4)" 2 pretty ladies..


Acting like 2 shy shu nus on the bridge..


Gimme that papaya!!


:: 2D1N Soccer Camp::

Our Soccer Club which we initiated is taking off.. albeit some hiccups along the way.. We know at the end of the day, it'll be worth it.

The 2D1N camp was a form of bonding for the boys.. and despite it being only 2D1N, it was enough to tire the workers out.. think i'm getting old.

(i dunno if i'm allowed to post pics of our youths on the net.. so only got us here)

Waiting for the boyz to serve us our BBQ food.. haha


V tired on the 2nd day of camp..


All things yellow.. a little sunshine.


::Food at Various Places::

I been to various places, mostly with my beloved family, to eat in the past month.

::Marche @ ViVo::

Verdict: Not nice.
The food used to be better. Actually the place we chose to sit at was nice, till a group of ............ came in and spoilt the atmosphere.




Lovely cottagey atmosphere till our meal was spoilt.. [-_-"]




::Awfully Chocolate from ViVo::

Meis wanted to try.. I had it a few years ago when a friend bought it, but i had the banana version. Both are equally nice, but for this, we tried the pure version cos 2nd mei dun like banana. Fussy. Haha. We also tried the ice cream, which was pure H.E.A.V.E.N.



::Ma Maison @ Bugis::

Fine dining Japanese-Western concept restaurant tucked away in a corner on Level 3.

Verdict: Not nice cos my paella wasn't done nicely at all. The rice was too hard and dry and the seafood was not fresh at all. To think it's their signature dish.




Lovely atmosphere. I love their soft romantic lighting and candlelight and quaint table setting.


Meis' pasta was nicer than my paella.


Messy arrangement plus not-nice paella [-_-"]


The bill was settled in this unique manner--bring this set of keys to the cashier! Haha innovative! 2nd mei said she wanted something like that for her 21st gift-mum told her to bring this home to wear. Mei was like [blearghz] haha. love my fam.


::Desserts @ MOF Bugis::

My first time trying their desserts. Meis and Mum had tried them before at the CCK outlet and had praised it to the skies. Really lovely, light on the palate, icy-cold with fresh ingredients. Loved every bite. A delicious way to end the evening.

My sesame ice-cream..


3rd mei's...



:: Pa's Bday::

Dad's bday was celebrated with a Coco Obsession cake from FourLeaves.

I love this pic, though it's dark. Love how Bibi is looking up at papa.




::Treats from my dears::

I cannot say enough how v lucky i am to have these dears in my life.. must be karma accumulated from previous lives. Always there to pamper me and spoil me, these 2. Who else but my flo and grace dears?

Grace dear treated me to a day, all-expenses day treat. First lovely dim sum at Min Jiang Restaurant at Goodwood Park, then a relaxing scrub and massage at Fullerton, then tea at Raffles Hotel, and she got me these 2 lovely gifts--a lovely candle-holder carved entirely out of marble, and a lovely painted-glass box to store my knick-knacks. Am i blessed, or blessed?


Then another week, my dearie flo dated me for lovely dim sum at Imperial Treasure Restaurant at Taka (this place is authentic for their dim sum-can bring my family there sometime). The silly gal bought me this cute little twin stars expandable ruler. i still can't stop laughing at her expression over the expandable ruler. hehe

Yes i really love dim sum. I prefer good dim sum at times to a full heavy meal, cos with dim sum, it's light on the palate and i can try a variety of dishes. My dears know me well. And i love eating with them cos they make food more enjoyable with their hearty appetites and interesting commentaries on the food haha.

At Imperial Treasure.. tea to cleanse your palate.



Lovely belated bday gift from my sweet nurturer Karrie!! Lovely old gold fairy necklace to add on to my collection! i dun really like gold but old gold, almost fading to bronze, is nice. I love the design of this fairy v much. Thinking of using this as a template for my next tattoo!


::Ladies' Night @ Waraku::

Finally plans for a gals' night out at my centre followed through. We decided to utilise the lovely promotion Waraku has for the ladies on Mon night - 50% off the entire bill for min. 4 ladies! Is it good or wad? Promotion till end-Dec for those not in the know, ONLY FOR LADIES. I heard most of the restaurants already have their Mon nights booked up to Dec. So now must walk-in. Lucky we had Piglet who took time off who kindly went to queue early for us. We ordered like there's no tomorrow and ended up paying only abt 20bucks each! And that is given that we ordered like there's no tomorrow...

Gimme my food quick! Hungreeeeehhhh...


The humongous bowl of udon.. all the udon/noodles are served in such a manner.


Monkey-ing around..




Blissfully fed.


Deceptively pretty desserts. not nice one. dun order. Stupid "Tart-ufo" as my boss called it.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

All kinds of people really do exist. and it's fark care which kind of setting you are in. I can only hope it's another growing and learning experience that will enable me to come out stronger and better as a person again. Again, i can feel my old self coming back. Disperse negative ions!! Show me more lurrrve man.

If there's one thing i have learned all these years abt myself, I know i am strong enough. it's just a matter of whether i want to do it or not.

I don't really want to keep thinking nobody is indispensable. hello tts not what i teach my children. but the sad reality is it is. Now how can i surround myself with uniquity again to disperse the negative ions of this phrase?

urgh.. so many thoughts now.. luckily i have piglet and djj to talk to.. outlet for frustrations is always good.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

i'm loved...

so farkin' tired this week.. it hasn't been a good week cos it is one of my worst months for my period.. so damn damn tired.. what makes it worse is it's also one of my busiest weeks.. i was literally struggling through the late nights and keeping alert for my sessions. i think i just got to learn to cope with late nights and now working saturdays. sigh.. i need my break soon.

i'm loved...

Despite the rough patches that period of time, we pulled through. those lovelies in my life. it's the little unexpected things they do that makes my life sweeter these days.

i think more imptly, i just work things out for myself as well and realise that i should learn to not be so hung-up over too much stuff, cos they'll just farkin drain my energy for better things in life. on top of that, i'm also learning to take no shit and just prioritise.

::Long Overdue::
I had a meet-up with karrie before she sinks into her pile of work..

she intro'ed me to a nice food place that day.. Modesto's!! it's my first time, and i must say, i'm loving their pasta with its generous ingredients and the fragrant wood-grilled pasta.










Yeah here's a pic of my new bed.. like finally=)

Having new bed means i gotta rearrange my room again.. haha.. and packing my stuff away.. the reason i bought my bed is cos of the storage space underneath where i can stow away all my knick-knacks and my beloved sylvanians. The storage box peeking out of the bed doubles up as a bedside table for me.



i want to post pics of my room but blogger is acting up on me again. ah well. pics another day then! i still have some more pics pending from others.. bye folks!!