At a time like this, i think i need to keep writing again to journal my feelings..

It's been a month since the "official breakup"... When will my heart feel whole again? I been pestered to move on, to heal, to do this and that. and all i wanna say is, "GIMME A BREAK!!"

It's not going to be easy seeing that at this point in time, all i still wanna is for him to leave that biatch and grovel back. They shouldn't be happy. They don't deserve to be happy.

Yet the mind tells me that, if i suffer now, i can really enjoy my happiness later. And whilst they are enjoying their superficial happiness now, they will suffer later.

My heart tells me to go ahead and message and demand the answer i never got cos my well-meaning friends told me not to msg as dignity is the way to go.

I so need a vacation.