alien avenue..

See? That's what I don't like about media.. Coming online, on msn, on internet, facebook and the likes.. and i see too many things (referring to people [i dun even feel they are friends anymore] who i don't really wanna waste any more of my time nor emotions on but being the emo me, i can't help getting upset all over again, and the people i thought to be friends but sigh... one-sided again.. yeah i didn't know friendships can be one-sided till yall. thanks bastards and biatches) that just bring up the unhappy emotions again. Blearghz. It looks like my dream of a life in a cottage could work for me. A friend once said i would miss the convenience of a modern life. I think not. Cos more than often not, many's lives are published over the media, esp the Internet. I don't really need too many reminders.. (see private blog). But i know i still need to blog, to assure some people i'm still alive, and also as an avenue for my frustrations. Writing helps keep me sane, in a certain sense. And the audience, public or otherwise, becomes the secret avenue for my babblings.

In any case, days without the Internet and in the company of Bibi and family works best for me, as of now. Yeah, with Bibi, i dun need a boyfriend, i dun need to be out socialising, i even dun see the things that i know i will inevitably see on the internet and hurt me, and i'm always happy.. Grace says my maternal instincts are going haywire, transferred to the wrong thing. I think not, well at least, the dog doesn't talk back to me (as a kid would), and it doesn't hurt me (as a human being would), and it keeps me company. Feng says that's why alot of celebrities keep dogs, someone to come home to at the end of the day and knowing that there's a dog waiting for you, loyally. Siggggh.. i'm so glad Bibi came home. I'm already missing him. (now at cousin's place). Maybe i could convince my cousin to let me keep a dog too.. haha. Fat hope really.

::Photos of Bibi::


my sweet...


I super love this pic cos i think he looks like a soft toy here.. But very blurry cos he was struggling.. he not so camwhoric anymorrrre...


clearer pic where ying manages to catch his happy emotion. On my knee, one of his fave places, cos he can bite on me in ecstasy.


Learning to climb the steps... Pa taught us to lure him...


... with a toy resembling him.


A pair of specs without frames which Pa found amidst our springcleaning and put on him.

Bi just had his final grooming on Monday before CNY and came back with all his beautiful fur cut off... Dun have a pic but i think he resembles a Jack Russell now, the body that is. Ying says his body is like Wall's Moo ice-cream now.

Bibi is very much a part of the family now. Even my dad would wake early just to feed him and entertain him. My mum would check on him before going to work daily..

::My darlings::

The people who still hold such a important part in my life in spite of the years, the events, my faults... I'm so glad we still kept in close touch.. some in constant touch, some in precious grabbed time that is still much treasured..

::The babes at our fave hangout--West Mall Coffee Bean::

I'm so blur that day.. forgot my wallet.. (must be my eagerness in meeting them) lucky my babes were sweet to pay for me first.. Always enjoyed the time together with them catching up and laughing and bringing the whole house down (i swear it's Cat's high-pitched laughter hahaha).. This is the one done in precious grabbed time tt only lasts a couple of hours at one time and always seem too rushed.. but every minute is a joy. I always come away with much positive and happy energy in me.. no matter how unhappy and negative i feel before i meet them.. my sunshines..=) thanks so much..


Eggs Ben!! My fave breakfast at Coffee Bean's. yumz.

And we had fresh refills of new teas (for syl and me) and coffee (for cat), courtesy of Cat's charm. There's this freaky waiter who keeps coming to our table at every opportunity to crack lame jokes, serve us stuff and asking if we needed refills (and he gave us new teabags and new coffee okay, not just pouring on hot water on the original drinks).. I really think he is attracted to Cat's high-pitched laughter.. haha. Cos I asked what kind of tea we had the second time round and he presented a tea guide to Cat, and oh ya, his lame jokes were all directed at Cat. Wahaha.. babe, stop "fang dian" okay? *tsk tsk* *wags finger* though i maintain that you are gonna end up with *er-hrm* at the end of the day and you really deserve better, but "fang dian" to better guys!!! hahahahha


Dessert after breakfast.. The flourless chocolate cake with toblerone was to-die-for.. faints.. the aromatic bittersweet chocolate melting slowly in your mouth... god, you got to give this a try..


Syl and me..


Cat and Syl.. Syl looks like Rainie Yang here manz. with her loose waves and small build. She looks small next to anyone i swear.. but she's defly a happier gal now and i'm so glad for her.. Cat oso grew tinier over the years.. she was relating this funny story to us of how her mum cun find her pic in the JC yearbook cos she was "Ju-Ba-Boo"... and then Syl was saying how "JuBaBoo" she was too... manz.. hahahahah... JuBaBoo??? who says tt nowadays now..? only my babes..=)

And sadly, im the only one to have Jubaboo over the years.. BOOHOO.. But never mind.. I shall strive to work to be healthier through more exercise!


Pic I caught of the ad of Sarah Jessica Parker's perfume, Covet in the display window of Sasa. I must be the last person on Earth to see this ad. I was like.. "So cool, this ad" and Flo, who was with me, was like, "Ya, U dunno this one meh?" So goondoo me... haha.. Love the creativity.

Had a lovely day out with flo where i bought these 2 interesting tops from this cool shop in Heeren called "Mu" in my 4 months plus of non-clothes-buying. One black, one white. That's cos the shop only has earth tones okay. I told Mummy i'll wear them for CNY and she just eyeballed me. Blearghz. I also bought 2 display cases for my miniature food toys.. Whee!!.. gonna have a fun time arranging them tmr! Most imptly, had a lovely heart-to-heart chat with Flo sweetie over iced lemon tea and nuggets. Flo and i can just understand where both of us are coming from cos we are basically from the same mould--very emotional people. She can und why i can't let go of certain things and i can und how she feels about certain issues.. I feel really at peace talking to her that Sat afternoon in the crowded Macs, feeling the reality reconcile with the emotions inside. Thanks for the talk sweetie and helping me understand who i am better.

I finally removed my extensions today!!.. with von's company=)

Okay i did say i wanna keep till CNY but the weather's frizzing all my hair up and my scalp's getting itchy.. O joy, the enjoyment of scratching my scalp.

And we went to Phin's to have a late dinner and check out her cute waiter. And then we had all the speculations about him cos we were blardy bored and we both have overactive imaginations. Gal, just get his number already!!


My Seafood Pasta. I always haveta take pics of their food cos i love how they arrange their food. So pretty.


Von's less interesing Seafood platter. Hahahahaha.

Had a good time as usual chatting with von.. thanks for the company babe=)

And then there were Debi and Grace... Hadnt met Debi for ages and I'm touched she kept in touch.. Had (quite a lousy in my opinion) Sakae's lunch but great company catching up. I totally admire the gal's zest.. all the stuff she's taking up.. driving lessons, Jap lessons, tuitions and then work-travel. She's good.. =)

And then my healing balm.. i know she would forget about me when work starts.. boohoo.. kidding.. just dun meet or keep in contact as frequently but i know she still meets me pretty frequently amongst her friends.. Always enjoyed my time with her and now though we can only meet for afterwork dinners, still treasured the talks and unspoken connection we shared despite our stark differences that is only possible through years of friendship. Whatever you are going through dear, i wanna be with you every step of the way.. okay? Even if you are going through alone, just remember my support's with you and your decision. hugs loads.

I just gotta do my weekly updates cos i'm afraid i'll get amnesia or Alzheimer's one day and i will forget all these wonderful people who made such a impact in my life.=)